PG and I have been talking about the status of our relationship lately and how things are going. It was about a year ago that we realized that our relationship was becoming more D/s based. Over the year, we’ve realized what works for us and what doesn’t. We created a ritual for when he comes over and before he leaves my place, which has really grown on us and helps us both shut the world out along other things.
We’ve been making casual references to him owning me but didn’t actually talk about it till last week. There are some challenges that we have, (what relationship doesn’t) such as balancing our relationship with other commitments and relationships. We wanted to classify our relationship with something that indicates ownership. That thought made me feel warm inside and it just felt right. For me, the word slave doesn’t sit right with me within my relationships. I love the times when I can be bratty, play fight and attempt to hold out but I also love the times where I’m obedient, do as I’m told and act the way he wishes me too. We both love the free flowing nature of our relationship and our dynamic. The word pet came out of his mouth and it felt right.
Everyone has different definitions of what certain words mean but for us it means that there is that strong, loving connection and ownership in a fun, loving way. I still get to be bratty (sometimes), energetic, loving and resistant. There is also the training and obedience aspects of it which we are exploring more and more. I am dedicated to our relationship and to him. It allows the room for other possible relationships to grow and develop, which is important for us. Our definition will grow and change but it will be interesting to see where our relationship continues to leads us.
After not being able to play in a while, PG and I decided that we both needed a hot and rough scene. We both got everything ready and he had the advantage by putting me in a breast harness. We fought pretty hard but I was on the losing end of the battle. I put up a pretty good fight but he knows my weaknesses to well and uses them against me.
He tried to get me in the sling but I fought away for a while until he was able to get me into the sling by pulling my hair and nipples with enough force. I kept fighting in the sling but he overpowered me again and I was locked in. After slapping me around, he pulled out the violet wand but one piece was missing. He was looking around for it but the piece in between the inserts and wand was left at home. We were a bit worried at first but he remembered he had another set of inserts at home. We couldn’t help but relax and cuddle once we figured out where it most like was. It put a dent in that part of the scene for the time being. Stuff happens and you can’t take it seriously. We planned on using that toy but we ended up having a great rough scene and moved on to a caning scene that left my butt glowing.
I am looking forward to getting zapped soon.
“… you are to apply an arc of five clothespins to each of your breasts, with the middle one on the nipple. They are to remain on fifteen minutes. But there’s a twist: At the end of that time, you are to flip a coin. If it comes up heads, you can remove the clothespins. If it comes up tails, you are to leave them on for a further ten minutes.”
Waking up Sunday morning, I opened up my e-mail to discover my task for today. My morning was busy but the afternoon was free. I stripped, took out my clothes pins and got comfortable on my bed. The wooden clothes pins typically don’t hurt right away but as time goes on, the sensation does built and if they are on for a long time, it can get pretty intense (or if they are hit off). They were getting more sensitive as the minutes ticked away as I grabbed the coin. I ended up flipping heads on the coin and took them off as directed.
On other news, PG and I were speaking about creating our own personal D/s manual. I’m getting more excited about it and have started generating ideas for it. It will be interesting talking about it and exploring it more when he gets back.
After a fun, treating myself afternoon and evening, I came home and opened up my e-mail from PG for my task for today. He has a pair of beautiful, Danton boots that we use exclusive for intimate play between us. The task was to place the boots on the floor and “skinner” my pussy around his boots. I was told to make them gleam.
As I put them down on the floor by the couch, I bent down and kissed the top of each one and then stripped naked. I was already turned on and wet before I started grinding myself on them. I placed myself on them and worked my way on them until they were absorbed with my fluid. His boots soaked it in and before long, I could smell the combination of leather and my wetness, which turned me on even more. I moved on to the next one, which was gleaming shortly after I started. After the task was done, I took a couple of photos, as requested. After I completed the task, I was allowed to relaxed on the floor and brought myself to powerful orgasm.
This task was meaningful and a lot of fun. He left his boots here without saying why, even when I asked what for. Looking at them everyday, I had a feeling they would be used in a task but I thought it might be to condition them. It makes me happy knowing that I’m pleasing him and he will have the e-mails upon his return. It keeps us connected even when he is miles away and without any Internet or phone access. Looking forward to seeing what else he will have me do.
It’s been awhile since I’ve done any anal play and looking back, I’m not sure why. I guess other play has taken over but it’s something that I enjoy. I’ve talk about it with PG but we haven’t gotten a chance to get back into it.
I opened up my first task yesterday, I had the choice of doing it either yesterday or today. Yesterday was busy with organizing, enjoying the sun and going out in the evening with S, which included some savoury Belgian beer. The task was:
…pick a size of butt plug you’re comfortable with. Do any foreplay that makes you relaxed and receptive. Once that’s done, you are to lie facedown, on the bed, Liberator, or mat, as you like. Gently insert the plug …You may cum at the end of this task, but not during.
I decided to start off with one of my smaller one. After some foreplay and keeping myself on the brick of orgasms, I put it in and cuddled up on bed while thinking about past memories of our time together, the feeling of the plug in my ass and about how hot it will be to be taken again. The requirement was only to keep it in for 15 minutes but I kept it in longer. I went along with some other things that had to be done, checked out some websites and then finally removed it later on in the afternoon. By the time I took it out, I was soaking wet and couldn’t resist getting off with my Hitachi.
Looking forward to seeing the other tasks that are awaiting for me and getting back into anal play.
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One of the things I love about PG is his love of the outdoors and his outdoor geek talk, even though it goes over my head sometimes. We just spent a great evening together before he departs on one of his adventures, which will keep him away for a month.
He loves being outdoors and as much as I love it, he enjoys going on his solo trips for weeks with just himself, nature and roughing it. It’s one of his passions and I love seeing the excitement in his eyes when he talks about his trips coming up and how relaxed he is afterwards. I love looking at the photos and listening to his tales after we catch up.
One of the things we started doing last year was tasks. He e-mails me a bunch of tasks in advance. I don’t know what he has planned for me but they are sitting in my inbox, waiting to be opened on a stated date and time. It’s a way we found to keep the bound strong while he is away and continue our training at the same time.
I get to open the first one on Saturday and might be posting updates depending on what they entail and if I’m ordered to. I have a lot planned for the next couple of weeks but it always warms my heart to open them up and knowing that completing them makes him happy. Looking forward to seeing what he has in store for me.
June MVK rolled around and we made sure that either PG or I would be volunteering as we wanted the night to have fun since he will be going on vacation soon. I headed out early to attended Rivers “The Care and Feeding of our Top” which was a well put together, informative workshop. If you have the chance to see a workshop by River, take the opportunity as she is a great educator. It allowed me to think of ways to maintain and grow my current relationships and helpful reminders about the power of new relationship energy along with other things.
After hanging out in the sun and grabbing something small to eat, PG and I were able to catch up for a while before we went into play. We jumped on the high blue bench and had a wonderful scene with lots of impact play including paddles, fists, kicking, leather gloves and more. It was a lot of fun and I was floating high pretty early in the scene. One of the many things that is great about PG is that he knows me so well and we have done hundreds of scenes that he knows how to get me out of my mind and into the wonderful floaty space. He let me relax, uncuffed me and lay down on the bench afterwards and relax. After I was more with it and was able to walk, we went to the aftercare tent before being social. I was still pretty floaty but PG made sure I was okay while we talked to some of our friends before calling it a relatively early night. We decided to go back to my house to cuddle and give each other aftercare but unfortunately we feel asleep together before taking part of Cane A Slut Day which is June 6th. However, we still have time today to take part.
A breast harness was tied on me and I was ordered to lie down. PG placed chocolate ice cream on my breast and directed me to move it around. The coldness of the cream made me wet and giggly. It was dripping all over my breast, I could feel it running down, onto my arms and underneath me. He climbed on top of me and started licking it all off while I was licking too. It was an afternoon of sticky fun.
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We had chocolate all over the both of us after fooling around with plenty of licking, kissing and rubbing against each other. We decided to jump in the shower with the rope on to clean up. One of the joys of hemp is that it gets tighter when it gets wet. You do have to be careful with it but I love the feeling of it and PG will get me out if it becomes too tight. As the rope got tighter and tighter my breath started to get shorter as we scrubbed ourselves and the rope clean.
After drying off from the shower, we did a face up suspension which was really comfortable and left some beautiful rope marks, I tried to move myself into a sideways suspension but it didn’t work so well but we had a blast with the face up one. After enjoying the rope high, my bed was the perfect place to reconnect after not having some quality time together in a couple of weeks. I wasn’t at ShibariCon this weekend but got to spend a lovely afternoon with PG which is priceless.
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As most people know, I’m poly but PG and I have a special relationship. I know I’m allowed to play or date anyone as long as if I’m safe both mentally and physically. I’m also allowed to pursue relationships of various kinds which he supports and encourages. Not to long ago, I decided that I wasn’t going to pursue anymore sexual or romantic relationships as I had a lot going on and needed time for myself. However, that time has past and if the opportunity came up and if the attraction is there, I would be interested.
On Thursday night, I was packing for Sex 2.0. I realized that PG and I haven’t talked about our sexual limits in a bit and got nervous. I’m not planning on anything in particular but you never know what will happen. After missed calls on both of our parts, I decided to send him an e-mail before I left just to make sure if something came up, if everything would be okay like we talked about before I took a break.
Luckily it was but it helped but my mind at ease. I was 80% sure it was going to be but sometimes that confirmation was just what I needed to relax and let this weekend flow.
**Warning there is a photo behind a cut. I’m not sure if it will work in feeds. It is a photo of a cutting. Just a warning if it’s not your thing**
Last week, PG and I went to a hands on cutting workshop. I was delaying writing the post because I was waiting for photos. After talking about the design with each other, we settled on the infinity symbol for a variety of reasons. The next decision was where to place it. We decided on my right lower back because it needs to be hidden from work and some places where it won’t affect daily life.
Once we got to the workshop, I was extremely nervous. It hit me when we were in the car but I couldn’t shake it. It was a good type of giddy nervousness as this would be my first time being cut. Once everyone arrived, I became a bit more calm and PG was sweet enough to distract me by pulling my hair and calming me down.
All the safety was talk about, the technique and other things that are needed. We stencilled out the design and the cutting started. It was really intense while he was cutting and hurt quite a bit. I was getting sick but didn’t realize it till the next day and I’m not sure if it made it more so. When the scalpel cuts the skin, it’s a sharp and intense sensation.
Afterwards, I admire the photos that we took as I couldn’t see the design without mirrors or photos. We snuggled, chat and enjoyed the endorphins that were running around. Enough talking about it, a photo is below the cut.
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