Passionate Bonds SF 2011

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Apr 092011

Last weekend was spent in San Francisco, I had a wonderful time both in the Passionate Bonds Intensive and seeing friends while exploring the city. I’m extremely happy that I made the trip down and it was worth every penny. The description from Midori website can be found on her website.

The description alone intrigued me but once I heard Dart’s Domain podcast, where he interviewed Midori and Laura Antoniou I was sold. I talked to PG and unfortunately he wasn’t able to make it but we realized it would benefit our relationship and my future ones if I went. I booked my ticket, hotel and made arrangements.

The weekend was full of learning new tools and skills, tough and challenging discussion and lots of work. It was a weekend of growth and knowledge for my relationship with PG, myself and for entering and negotiating  a future D/s relationship whether it’s for a weekend or long-term. It allowed me to define what I value, need and contribute and to put it on paper and examine it.

I’ve always know I was different and that my relationship with PG is unique. We don’t want to and can’t follow the “popular” protocols and the ways of acting. I love being bratty sometimes and play fighting which isn’t the way a “true submissive” acts or so I’ve been told. I also love serving him and being obedient, which isn’t that common to mix them both in. We needed to create our own protocols and coming to this weekend has given us the chance to start fresh and make sure the protocols we create work for us and produce that goofy smile. We created a unique mission statement for our relationship and all the protocols should serve that. I love the idea of having a mission statement and to review all these frequently. We have set up some protocols and started using them. Once we are confident in those, we want to create more. Our connect and desire is stronger. I’m considering making our own personal book with photos and text that would include our protocols, mission statement and transitional plans. We could print a new copy every year after reviewing it and updating it.

My fellow participates were incredible,  thank you! They opened up, shared and were great people to be around. I enjoyed working with them and being with them for this journey. Parts of the workshop were really hard. PG and I have already discussed what was to happen in case one of us died so when that discussion came up, I was prepared and ready to talk about it. It wasn’t as much of a  shock talking about it as the first time we did. I still remember how upset and how many tears came out of me with just the thought. It makes it easier to talk about it in advance but it’s an incredibly hard process. We first talked about it over two years ago due to our age difference and my near death experiences.

There was so much that we learned that this post could have been thousands of words however I would encourage you to go if they have another one. It’s for anyone who doesn’t want protocols just handed to them from a website, who appreciates and cherishes uniqueness and who wants an authentic, quality and hot D/s relationship. Oh and the connection, sex and play has increased when I already thought it was at the peak.

Thank you Laura and Midori for doing this intensive and asking those pesky questions.  You gave us all something that we need and thank you for sharing your skills, knowledge and yourselves.

 

 

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Leaving for San Francisco

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Mar 302011

I have a lot of fond memories on Sundays, it is one of PG and mine date days. We started our Sunday date day last weekend by cuddling up and talking about our relationship. We discussed and thought about our different rules and protocols as this was our last uninterrupted time before I headed to Passionate Bonds in San Francisco. Since I would be going by myself, we have been talking a lot and we set up checkins and talking times for when I’m away to catch up and discussion what has been going on.

After talking and discussion, we were both getting turned on and decided to play for a bit. PG tied me in a box tie with my hands behind my back to make me helpless. After I was secured and couldn’t defend myself, a gas mask was put on my head to hinder my breathing.  He also put the collar on me, that completely changes my headspace. I become obedient and if I did want to try to break the rules, I would be punished severely.

He loved the fact that my hands were behind me and started torturing my breast with his hands until he picked up the sharp fid and scraped me, bite me and gave me a couple of hickies before taking the Hitachi and giving me a mind-blowing orgasms. It was a perfect afternoon and everything flowed so well. We were both in a happy place afterwards and our connection felt stronger.

I’ll be away for a long weekend but will have plenty of fun stories to share including going to Fist Full of Film, Alcatraz, Japanese Spa and the intensive itself.

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Wonderful Weekend

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Jan 302011

This weekend was filled with fun times, pleasure, laughs and marks. It’s a bit hard to realize that the work week is ahead but at least Westward Bound is next weekend and then the move. It was a great chance for PG and I to spend quality time together with no other commitments but each other.

Saturday was a great party over at a friends house. We were able to play on this chair type thing on top of a cage. After being secured around it with rope and having my arms tied to my side, my legs were spread apart. He put one of my legs in the stirrups and tied the other to the metal bars in the windows above. We had a lot of fun with the position and the exposure that it gave. He plugged in the violet wand and would zap my inner thighs, breasts, vulva and all around varying the intensity and intervals. After warming me up, he put my collar on me after I was able to get a lot of my brattiness out. My attitude and mind frame completely changed as soon as the lock clicked. We continued to play with lots of torturing with hands and zaps from the wand.  I was a puddle afterwards and as he untied me, he put me on the ground before we retired to the aftercare area to recharge. We rejoined the party and soaked in the hot tub while socializing, perfect. We always leave his parties feeling warm and happy. Thank you again for the invite and we hope to be able to come to the next one.

After sleeping in after the night before, I was feeling so warm and cozy. We cuddled for awhile before deciding to take advantage of my hard points since they were coming down that day. PG put me into a comfy, face up suspension and let me float for awhile before he dom-nommed me and I fell into a blissful state. Time just flew by as every touch, suck and lick was enhanced. After being up and receiving pleasure, he let me spin before taking me down and resting with each other. We spent the rest of the afternoon pleasuring each other and talking about more training.

I had my collar on for most of the weekend and the feeling of being protected, loved and owned felt right. We haven’t been exploring the D/s part of our relationship lately due to having fun with other things and letting my bratty side come out and play. I believe just letting our relationship flow how it will, is the best way. Right now, it seems to be flowing back to a more D/s.

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His pet

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Aug 212010

PG and I have been talking about the status of our relationship lately and  how things are going. It was about a year ago that we realized that our relationship was becoming more D/s based. Over the year, we’ve realized what works for us and what doesn’t. We created a ritual for when he comes over and before he leaves my place, which has really grown on us and helps us both shut the world out along other things.

We’ve been making casual references to him owning me but didn’t actually talk about it till last week. There are some challenges that we have, (what relationship doesn’t) such as balancing our relationship with other commitments and relationships. We wanted to classify our relationship with something that indicates ownership. That thought made me feel warm inside and it just felt right. For me, the word slave doesn’t sit right with me within my relationships. I love the times when I can be bratty, play fight and attempt to hold out but I also love the times where I’m obedient, do as I’m told and act the way he wishes me too.  We both love the free flowing nature of our relationship and our dynamic. The word pet came out of his mouth and it felt right.

Everyone has different definitions of what certain words mean but for us it means that there is that strong, loving connection and ownership in a fun, loving way. I still get to be bratty (sometimes), energetic, loving  and resistant. There is also the training and obedience aspects of it which we are exploring more and more. I am dedicated to our relationship and to him.  It allows the room for other possible relationships to grow and develop, which is important for us. Our definition will grow and change but it will be interesting to see where our relationship continues to leads us.

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Task: Clothes Pins

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Jul 042010

“… you are to apply an arc of five clothespins to each of your breasts, with the middle one on the nipple. They are to remain on fifteen minutes. But there’s a twist: At the end of that time, you are to flip a coin. If it comes up heads, you can remove the clothespins. If it comes up tails, you are to leave them on for a further ten minutes.”

Waking up Sunday morning, I opened up my e-mail to discover my task for today.  My morning was busy but the afternoon was free. I stripped, took out my clothes pins and got comfortable on my bed. The wooden clothes pins typically don’t hurt right away but as time goes on, the sensation does built and if they are on for a long time, it can get pretty intense (or if they are hit off). They were getting more sensitive as the minutes ticked away as I grabbed the coin. I ended up flipping heads on the coin and took them off as directed.

On other news, PG and I were speaking about creating our own personal D/s manual. I’m getting more excited about it and have started generating ideas for it. It will be interesting talking about it and exploring it more when he gets back.

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Wednesday Task

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Jun 302010

After a fun, treating myself afternoon and evening, I came home and opened up my e-mail from PG for my task for today.  He has a pair of beautiful, Danton boots that we use exclusive for intimate play between us. The task was to place the boots on the floor and “skinner” my pussy around his boots. I was told to make them gleam.

As I put them down on the floor by the couch, I bent down and kissed the top of each one and then stripped naked. I was already turned on and wet before I started grinding myself on them. I placed myself on them and worked my way on them until they were absorbed with my fluid. His boots soaked it in and before long, I could smell the combination of leather and my wetness, which turned me on even more. I moved on to the next one, which was gleaming shortly after I started. After the task was done, I took a couple of photos, as requested. After I completed the task, I was allowed to relaxed on the floor and brought myself to powerful orgasm.

This task was meaningful and a lot of fun. He left his boots here without saying why, even when I asked what for. Looking at them everyday, I had a feeling they would be used in a task but I thought it might be to condition them. It makes me happy knowing that I’m pleasing him and he will have the e-mails upon his return. It keeps us connected even when he is miles away and without any Internet or phone access. Looking forward to seeing what else he will have me do.

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Task: Getting back into anal play

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Jun 202010

It’s been awhile since I’ve done any anal play and looking back, I’m not sure why. I guess other play has taken over but it’s something that I enjoy. I’ve talk about it with PG but we haven’t gotten a chance to get back into it.

I opened up my first task yesterday, I had the choice of doing it either yesterday or today. Yesterday was busy with organizing, enjoying the sun and going out in the evening with S, which included some savoury Belgian beer. The task was:

…pick a size of butt plug you’re comfortable with. Do any foreplay that makes you relaxed and receptive. Once that’s done, you are to lie facedown, on the bed, Liberator, or mat, as you like. Gently insert the plug …You may cum at the end of this task, but not during.

I decided to start off with one of my smaller one. After some foreplay and keeping myself on the brick of orgasms, I put it in and cuddled up on bed while thinking about past memories of our time together, the feeling of the plug in my ass and about how hot it will be to be taken  again. The requirement was only to keep it in for 15 minutes but I kept it in longer. I went along with some other things that had to be done, checked out some websites and then finally removed it later on in the afternoon. By the time I took it out, I was soaking wet and couldn’t resist getting off with my Hitachi.

Looking forward to seeing the other tasks that are awaiting for me and getting back into anal play.

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His Summer Partner

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Jun 172010

Picture by ecstaticist http://www.flickr.com/photos/ecstaticist/3870259374/

One of the things I love about PG is his love of the outdoors and his outdoor geek talk, even though it goes over my head sometimes. We just spent a great evening together before he departs on one of his adventures, which will keep him away for a month.

He loves being outdoors and as much as I love it, he enjoys going on his solo trips for weeks with just himself, nature and roughing it. It’s one of his passions and I love seeing the excitement in his eyes when he talks about his trips coming up and how relaxed he is afterwards. I love looking at the photos and listening to his tales after we catch up.

One of the things we started doing last year was tasks. He e-mails me a bunch of tasks in advance. I don’t know what he has planned for me but they are sitting in my inbox, waiting to be opened on a stated date and time.  It’s a way we found to keep the bound strong while he is away and continue our training at the same time.

I get to open the first one on Saturday and might be posting updates depending on what they entail and if I’m ordered to. I have a lot planned for the next couple of weeks but it always warms my heart to open them up and knowing that completing them makes him happy. Looking forward to seeing what he has in store for me.

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My collar is fixed

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Apr 212010

A couple of weeks ago, my collar broke while I was at a work. The leather that holds it to the ring came undone and it had to be repaired. PG fixed it and put it back on me yesterday.

My collar is special to me. One meaning is it allows me to feel connected to him when we aren’t together. I don’t wear the collar 24/7 . We take it off when it’s time for me to be bratty, play fighting, playing with others or if the situation isn’t right for it. I have a lot of freedom on when I’m wearing it but I tend to wear most of the time.

It really helps when I have to deal with some emotional tough motions at work. My job can be difficult and dealing with situations can be hard, it’s part of my job. It can be really draining but when I experience those times, I can head outside for a little break, take some deep breaths and hold on to it.

It felt really weird not wearing it and not having the option of putting it back on. I felt disconnected during the days and evenings. The meaning of his collar on me has really transformed since he first put it on me in December.

It’s pretty amazing and leaves a big smile on my face just thinking about it.

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February 2010 MVK

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Feb 072010

It’s been a couple of months since I went to MVK. I couldn’t make the December one and there wasn’t one in January.

The evening started out with PG picking me up and us attending the resistance play workshop. The workshop was a lot of fun and people were encouraged to try various moves on each other. After learning some new moves including a couple on how to block people when they try to take me down.

The workshop ended early and we had a bit of time to catch up with some friends. After the dungeon was set up, we planned on playing as the original plan was to have an early night. We set up on the medical table and I was tightly bound to it. We ended up delaying our scene as a scene auction going on and we simply enjoyed watching it.  It was fun having a bit of play while watching and the MC did a great job of raising money and promoting play. PG ended up on bidding on a scene to have a wonderful female join us for the interrogation scene we were doing that night. Due to the popularity of many of the people being auctioned, we schedule doing the scene with her for another night.  I’m looking forward to it as I’m sure it will fun and intense.

The auction was over and we started on the scene. The story behind it was that I was rigging the gold medal Olympics game to make sure Canada would win. PG was a citizen who supported fair play and was trying to get the password out of me to unlock my plan. The scene was fun. Since I was already bound during the auction, he tried getting the information out of me by using vampire gloves all over my body. He was going harder than usual and some of the marks are a bit deep. He would put the blanket over me to keep me warm (unfortunately there was no heat in the building that night) and to keep me in suspense.  The vampires gloves did a good number on me and had me struggling and fighting against the bounds. After he was satisfied with the marks on me, he started playing with the clothes pins. He has these plastics ones which are particular evil. I could see that he was properly going to end up doing a zipper on me.

Unfortunately around that time there was a distracted that interpreted the scene. I ended up having to take a break because of it. After we talked a bit, we decided to continue and not let that end things. During the time we took a break, he untied my legs and arms to give me time to rest. We continued but the first part was to get me bound again and under his control. I still had rope wrapped around me and the top part of the bench but my legs and arms were free. It was fun, I put up a good fight so he couldn’t completely get me bound for a bit. We probably fought for a good 15 minutes before he had my legs and arms where he wanted them. We continued the scene and he managed to get 66% of the password with nipple torture and other things. Unfortunately, we had to call the scene short for a couple of reasons.

We ended up thinking we were going to leave and headed outside. We talked a bit outside the dungeon, debriefed and we decided to go back in and play. We ended up finding an empty spot on the cross and jumped on it. Before the scene started he told me to kneel down and put my collar on, which creates a completely different mind space. He clipped me onto the cross and worked on my ass until it was beautiful shades of pink and red. After I was nice and deep into subspace,  he took me down, we cuddled and then decided to go home to continue the  aftercare.

Overall, it was a good night. We had a bit of a bump but we were able to talk about it and ended up having a wonderful second scene.  We both got the aftercare and comfort that we needed. It was our first interrogation scene in public and a good learning experience for the both of us. A good part about ending the interrogation scene was that he still has to get the last of the password out of me, we will continue the mission of him trying to get the rest of the password today.

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