Things have been a bit hectic to say the least in my life. It seemed like almost everyday is being filled with something that had to be done, lots of good but necessary things. A couple of nights ago, PG and I both needed us time though.  After a false report of snow and a delicious home cooked meal, we cuddled up to listen to Dart’s Domain podcast on Passionate Bonds.

I’ve heard about the weekend but didn’t know too much about it as it wasn’t something that I was ready for at the time. However, after I saw the title line appear on my IPod, I downloaded it and started listening to it at work. It was capturing something in me but something told me to wait till later that day and listen to it with PG. The podcast provided a lot of information about the weekend and the idea of spending a whole weekend immersed in thinking, processing and learning more about myself, my relationship PG and future D/s relationships appealed to me and hit me hard. I guess the time was right and fortunately San Francisco is just a short plane ride away.

PG and I both want to expand and grow our relationship as Owner and pet but I think we are getting a bit lost in how we should do it in a way that works for us. The key thing is making it a natural part of our life while remembering other commitments and relationships. We need to find ways that will make it fit into our lives but be special and able to create our own little world easier. In addition, it sounds like this weekend is a weekend of growth, not just for the relationship but as an individual.

I’m looking forward to what sounds to be like a great weekend that will probably wipe me out. After the GrUE, PG and I will spend a fair amount of time discussing as I’ll be going solo to San Francisco. If you do want to read more, you can see the Passionate Bond website, it sounds like a special intensive.

 

A new Ropecast is up, checked out the latest episode featuring an interview with me talking about myself and the Vancouver GrUE. Gray and DoNotGoGently also answers, “What do Doms Want?”.

It was my first time being interview and at first I was nervous but it became easier after the first quarter. I realized I forgot to talk about dunking in regards to water bondage. As well, I forgot to include a bit about my kink life when I first arrived in Vancouver till I attended my first Rope and Grope. However, that could of taken a couple of hours :) It’s odd listening to yourself but I’m sure you get use to it.

If you haven’t heard of the Ropecast, check out the latest episode and work your way back.

 

 

Time is just flying by. I can’t believe there is less then 2 weeks till the GrUE. If you want to buy a ticket, I would act on it fast as it appears that we might sell out. You can click below to register.

Register for Vancouver GrUE in Vancouver, British Columbia  on Eventbrite

The preparations are going well and smoothly. I’m really looking forward for the event to happen and see people from the East Coast, Seattle area, California, here and elsewhere. It’s going to be a great mix of locals and non. I can’t wait to see what topics will be taught, the discussions and the social interactions. Everyone I’ve spoken to has been to a GrUE has had a great time, learned new things and formed new connections. I love the fact that I was able to bring this to Vancouver and I’m looking forward to what it does to our community here.

On other news, I’m happy to report that I’m almost unpacked and settled in to my new place. I really pushed myself to get a lot done this past week and it feels nice to look around and feel comfortable. I’m hoping that PG can install a couple of hard points today and then it’s just a bit more work till I’m happy. I’ve been told that I have to wait till after the GrUE to paint, thinking about it I agree. I’m hoping to have a lot of happy memories here.

Now, off to do some more work and get ready for a date afternoon with PG. I’ve missed writing here.

Feb 132011

In the next couple of hours, I give my keys back at my old apartment and begin living in my new one full-time. It’s been an adventurous and stressful couple of weeks but I’m glad that it’s done. All that is left to do is to unpack, organize and decided where the hard points should be, if at all.

My relationship with my old building was going down hill and I couldn’t live there any longer. To make matters worse, the night before the move I discovered mold in my apartment. It wasn’t by the windows or washroom but was growing under my box spring and on the back of my book cases. After trying to clean it, I dumped it and replaced it. The thought of it being there made me sick.

It’s been stressful and a lot of work but I’m moved and now I can just focus on making this place home and the GrUE. I’m giving up a view and a place to do loud scenes but I gain a place that is comfortable, walking distance from work, a great area, old tub with tie points and most importantly a place I can make my home. I’m looking forward to having friends over and hosting out of town guests, playing, relaxing and exploring.

A couple of weeks ago, PG and I sat on the balcony at my old place while smoking a cigar and having some scotch. We looked up at the mountains, talked and remember all the scenes we had there. It gave me a chance to close this chapter of my life but open up the new one.

Unfortuantely, I couldn't mind a human model on short notice

The Lelo Tor was a fun toy to use and as PG would say, “turned my cock into a vibrator”.  The Tor is  the newer designed cock ring from Lelo that is multi-speed and re-chargeable. If you have a Leo Bo, it’s the upgraded version. PG and I really enjoyed using the Tor and it has become our favourite cock ring.

The Tor can be used on a variety of sizes of penises or dildos, the ring is fairly stretchy and can accommodate whether you are placing it behind the scrotum or above. We only tried it above as that is PG preferences however it worked well for us. We both enjoyed the vibrating settings. It is a nice treat that we don’t always get to experience. PG mentions that you can feel the vibration through the length of your penis which was a new but welcomed sensation. The thing that we really liked about it, is it allowed both of us to experience it at the same time.

The Tor has a variety of settings including a continuous vibration with different intensities. Once you reach the maximum you start to cycle between the other patterns which vary in pulse. There are two buttons, one on each side that control the speed. It can be a bit difficult to adjust as it is either pressed right against you partner or right against your scrotum.

The Tor comes apart for easy cleaning, simply slid the hard plastic vibration part off the TPE ring. To clean, Lelo recommends washing with warm water and antibacterial soap and pat dry. Be careful when cleaning as you don’t want to get water in the socket. Charging is easy, you put the pieces of the Tor in the carrying case and plug the charger in. In case you lost the charger, any Lelo charge will work. It takes about a two hours to charge and lasts two hours but it’s only recommend for use less then 1 hour.

I’ve used the Tor on dildos and enjoyed it, it’s not as powerful as a bio cock but it still adds to it. We don’t use the Tor everytime we have sex as we do enjoy sex without it, it’s our occasional treat.

As with all Lelo toys, the material is body safe and the packing makes it a beautiful gift to unwrap.Thank you Sextoy.com for letting me try out the Tor.

Tor Black | Vibrators | Sex Toys

Jan 302011

This weekend was filled with fun times, pleasure, laughs and marks. It’s a bit hard to realize that the work week is ahead but at least Westward Bound is next weekend and then the move. It was a great chance for PG and I to spend quality time together with no other commitments but each other.

Saturday was a great party over at a friends house. We were able to play on this chair type thing on top of a cage. After being secured around it with rope and having my arms tied to my side, my legs were spread apart. He put one of my legs in the stirrups and tied the other to the metal bars in the windows above. We had a lot of fun with the position and the exposure that it gave. He plugged in the violet wand and would zap my inner thighs, breasts, vulva and all around varying the intensity and intervals. After warming me up, he put my collar on me after I was able to get a lot of my brattiness out. My attitude and mind frame completely changed as soon as the lock clicked. We continued to play with lots of torturing with hands and zaps from the wand.  I was a puddle afterwards and as he untied me, he put me on the ground before we retired to the aftercare area to recharge. We rejoined the party and soaked in the hot tub while socializing, perfect. We always leave his parties feeling warm and happy. Thank you again for the invite and we hope to be able to come to the next one.

After sleeping in after the night before, I was feeling so warm and cozy. We cuddled for awhile before deciding to take advantage of my hard points since they were coming down that day. PG put me into a comfy, face up suspension and let me float for awhile before he dom-nommed me and I fell into a blissful state. Time just flew by as every touch, suck and lick was enhanced. After being up and receiving pleasure, he let me spin before taking me down and resting with each other. We spent the rest of the afternoon pleasuring each other and talking about more training.

I had my collar on for most of the weekend and the feeling of being protected, loved and owned felt right. We haven’t been exploring the D/s part of our relationship lately due to having fun with other things and letting my bratty side come out and play. I believe just letting our relationship flow how it will, is the best way. Right now, it seems to be flowing back to a more D/s.

I’ve been in the mist of purging and packing, I’ve been coming across a lot of items that are bring back a flood of memories. Positive memories floored me as I was looking at old event tickets, posters, passes, pictures and journal entries. I keep those in a small box that I occasionally look at as they put a smile on my face.

On the opposite end of things, I came across numerous documents that brought back some tough memories that I decided to take the time to process such as some car accident documents that I no longer need, old leases and other pieces of paper that didn’t have a positive association for me. As I was reading them, I was able to let some of the hurt go, accept and move on. A big step was being able to shred them, powerful.

The power of my emotions from packing surprised me but it helped, it cleansed me and I feel lighter after shredding and shredding. Has others experienced that?

I’m done packing most of the non-essential items and I’m getting ready for the movers on the 11th. The next couple of weeks is going to be busy with a friends party, forensics workshops and Westward Bound. I can’t also believe that the GrUE is only 40 days away. Make sure to get your ticket as advance registration is required and limited tickets are available. Check out the Fetlife or Eventbrite page.

Jan 152011

One of the many things that I love about PG is his desire to push me, create new scenarios and keep me off guard.  He created a box for us to play with after he had the idea for a while from seeing it in the book, “Screw the Roses, Send Me the Thorns”, and I saw it on Kink.com. I love being put into the box but it’s still pretty new to me. It’s a peaceful place to be. From the moment he locks the bottom hatch, I feel surrounded. My senses are messed up due to the deprivation. There are two holes in the front, one conveniently placed for my mouth and one further up to help with the air flow, if needed.

Being in the box is a form of breath control and when it’s closed it makes me floaty fast. I have no idea what is coming at me and even though I didn’t think it would, I feel safe and loved in it. It allows me to relax, float and serve. It’s a unique creation that is special to us and allows us to float away while expanding the type of play that we love with each other.

Last Sunday, he put me in the box, caressed me and touched me when I wasn’t expecting it. His touch was increased and I felt safe. If you have any questions about the box, you will have to ask PG but it’s a lovely creation that has already created blissful memories and I can see many more to come. It is one of my favourite toys and it’s even more special since he made it.

Jan 132011

Last weekend I had a delayed small birthday celebration. It was difficult to plan as the holidays season is busy for most people but this year PG took it over and planned it out.  We ended up going to this great local place by me that caters to different dietary needs and for me that means gluten-free pizza and beer.

We met there and had a wonderful dinner and conversations. A lot of our worlds are busy and our lives don’t overlap as much as they use to. However being able to get together for birthdays and special occasions is always meaningful. After finishing our meals and opening thoughtful and lovely gifts we headed back to my apartment to hang out. PG was really sweet and went beyond what I envisioned for the evening and bought a gluten-free cake. It was enjoyed by everyone but next time we will have to remember it’s more dense and sweet.

People wrestled including me, birthday spankings were given out to all the birthday people there and we hung out and just had a great time.  I’m really happy that PG planned something small and intimate for me. It will also be the last get together in this apartment as I’m officially moving and most likely won’t be able to have loud, kinky parties at home anymore.

Extended touching is always a great way to connect – or reconnect – with a partner.  The Shunga Massage Candle provides an excellent excuse (like you needed one) to engage in extended touch. Most of the wax play that I’ve experienced is hot wax dripping on me during a scene and taken off with a blade of a knife. Massage candles are completely different but it’s a lovely change. I received a Shunga Massage Candle from PinkCherry.ca and was planning on testing it out next week but a minor injury led PG and I use it earlier.

Outside of the tin

PG thoughts on it were, “Our timing for testing it couldn’t have been better – sort of. Earlier in the afternoon, Alpine had pulled a muscle in her back, so she was clearly the designated “rubbee” and I was meant to be the rubber. After the wax melted, the contents of the can were just pleasantly warm, not scalding hot, so I could apply them with my bare fingers as well as with the little spoon provided. Imagine a gently heated cream and you’ll have a pretty good idea of the texture and temperature. It let me glide my fingers very sensuously over Alpine’s skin. (Purely in the interests of science, I later tried gliding another appendage over Alpine’s lower back – that was equally sensuous.)  The cream is subtly scented, which was nice. Even after thoroughly oiling up Alpine’s shoulders, back, and bottom, we had lots of lovely rub left in the can for future massage sessions. I look forward to both giving and receiving. ”

The candle comes packaged in a black tin with Shunga art in rich colours. The tin easily opens and upon open it you are hit with a strong, sweet fruity smell. I found it a bit overwhelming but pleasant.  The candle is made from soybean oil,  coco nucifera oil, fragrances and other oils. Using the candle is simple, make sure to keep the wick trimmed, light it and wait for it to melt (20 minutes or longer) and then have fun. When you are ready to use it, blow out the candle and apply it to the skin. There are various ways that you can apply it. Shunga include a little white spoon that can be used, you can pour it on your hands and then massage into the receiver skin or pour it directly onto them.

After one use

The wax is a bit thicker then other candles that I’ve tried and greasy but it doesn’t get in the way of an enjoyable massage. After having it massaged in my skin, it was slick and smooth. The residue that is left on your skin won’t stain your sheets and it came off easily if you applied too much. It is a bit waxy but I found , with my skin, if you use the candle when it’s a liquid and rub it in well it’s hardly an issue.

Thank you PinkCherry Sex Toys for the Shunga Massage Candle. It’s an enjoyable product and I’m looking forward to continuing to use it.

*The above toy was provided free of charge in exchange for the review. It does not influence whether I give a glowing or negative review. My opinions would be the same as if I paid for it myself*

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