Alpine SubDreams

I’ve been in the mist of purging and packing, I’ve been coming across a lot of items that are bring back a flood of memories. Positive memories floored me as I was looking at old event tickets, posters, passes, pictures and journal entries. I keep those in a small box that I occasionally look at as they put a smile on my face.

On the opposite end of things, I came across numerous documents that brought back some tough memories that I decided to take the time to process such as some car accident documents that I no longer need, old leases and other pieces of paper that didn’t have a positive association for me. As I was reading them, I was able to let some of the hurt go, accept and move on. A big step was being able to shred them, powerful.

The power of my emotions from packing surprised me but it helped, it cleansed me and I feel lighter after shredding and shredding. Has others experienced that?

I’m done packing most of the non-essential items and I’m getting ready for the movers on the 11th. The next couple of weeks is going to be busy with a friends party, forensics workshops and Westward Bound. I can’t also believe that the GrUE is only 40 days away. Make sure to get your ticket as advance registration is required and limited tickets are available. Check out the Fetlife or Eventbrite page.

Resting in someone I care about arms, letting go and simply enjoying each other is something that helps me find balance and is one way that helps me  refocus and relax.It’s warm, comfortable and loving. The comfort that you have with someone that you can truly let go and just be yourself. The joy of being able to call those special people and simply say you are having a bad day and they find a way to make it better. Having those people in my life is what important and showing and telling them just how much they mean to me.

I cherish them.

The break in between the holidays was busy but at the same time relaxing. My Christmas day was spent with friends and the energy and love was overflowing. It was a great way to spend Christmas.

The following two days were spent walking with PG and his dog. We went on walks to the North Shore and around Vancouver, it was a great way to check out some new spots and enjoy some down time with him. I also spent some time hanging out with friends and meeting someone new to BDSM and giving them some tips. I didn’t do very much play but there were discussions and thoughts.

I celebrated my birthday a couple of days ago. The day before, S and I spent the afternoon together before going to my favourite new restaurants that has a gluten-free menu . My actual birthday wouldn’t have been complete without spanking and some orgasms. I got treated to a big dinner and lovely gluten-free beer and a set of antique English style handcuffs (unfortunately we have to take them back as the keys aren’t working). I had a great birthday even with working that day and I’m having a small party in January too. I’ve been spoiled.

I was going to do a recap of 2010 but I ended up deciding not to do a public one. It’s been a difficult year full of  growths and challenges. There have been good times but overall 2010 really pushed me to grow, accept, fight and succeed. I’m looking forward to seeing what 2011 brings. It’s already looking promising.

The past little bit has gone by too fast that when I look at the calender, I can’t believe we are in mid December. The GrUE is coming up in Vancouver and everything is coming along. The final details are almost done and tickets are selling. There is a limited number of tickets but they are still available. As of right now, tickets won’t be sold at the door. If you would like to come, check out eventbrite.

I haven’t been feeling the best lately and after some blood work, I’m going to be going gluten-free for the short-term. I wasn’t eating enough gluten for the blood work to be effective but my doctors thinks doing an elimination diet is the way to go. I stopped eating the majority of my gluten consumption this weekend and I’m already feeling better. Today after speaking to my doctor, I am clearing out my kitchen and giving some of my food to a couple of friends and unopened food to the food bank. It’s amazing how many things contain gluten but if I keep feeling better it’s worth it. I’ll try gluten in a couple of months and see what happens. I think I’ll try a beer as that is what I’ll miss most.

I’m still smoke free. It’s been 38 days and it really does get easier and easier. I was really struggling with it and now I’m slowly decreasing the medication.  I’m still extremely happy that I made this decision and now that it’s just getting easier, I should have more energy to write more. I’ve missed interacting, reading blogs and writing post.

Hope everyone December is going along well and happy holidays!

This past weekend was sent at the Mollena D/s Intensive, I still have to process a lot of it and will be writing later about it. If you have a chance to see her present, go. She is entertaining, educational and really fun to talk to. Now, it’s time to pack and head down to Seattle for Leather Reign on Thursday but not without a date night here first. I’m hoping to be able to catch up a bit on the train but I’m fighting a dental infection right now that is a bit draining. Who will be there?