Choke collar fun

D/s
Apr 242010

Wednesday night, PG and I stopped by the pet store to look around. One thing that was on your list was a choke collar that our friend showed us. When I first saw it, I knew I wanted to try it and tried to keep my containment in the store, pretending it was for a big dog was difficult.

As soon as we got in the car, I couldn’t help but touch it and caress it. It was very shiny and attractive. Trying it on had to wait as we went to one of our favourite Thai restaurants and had a lovely meal. After we got home, we couldn’t resist trying it out. We removed one of the links and he put it on me, it’s difficult to put on but it worked. We tried some bratty play where I would misbehave (try to bit him, pinch him …) and all he would have to do is pull and it was an instant correction.

The feeling was an increase pressure turning into pain. I could resist it for only so long before I would have to give in. We kept playing with it, testing it out and found that we both loved playing with it. I love the feeling of things around my neck. The choke collar makes a big impact.

It will be fun using our new choke collar in D/s training. Lots of possibilities are opening up for it.

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My collar is fixed

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Apr 212010

A couple of weeks ago, my collar broke while I was at a work. The leather that holds it to the ring came undone and it had to be repaired. PG fixed it and put it back on me yesterday.

My collar is special to me. One meaning is it allows me to feel connected to him when we aren’t together. I don’t wear the collar 24/7 . We take it off when it’s time for me to be bratty, play fighting, playing with others or if the situation isn’t right for it. I have a lot of freedom on when I’m wearing it but I tend to wear most of the time.

It really helps when I have to deal with some emotional tough motions at work. My job can be difficult and dealing with situations can be hard, it’s part of my job. It can be really draining but when I experience those times, I can head outside for a little break, take some deep breaths and hold on to it.

It felt really weird not wearing it and not having the option of putting it back on. I felt disconnected during the days and evenings. The meaning of his collar on me has really transformed since he first put it on me in December.

It’s pretty amazing and leaves a big smile on my face just thinking about it.

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Two scenes in one afternoon

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Mar 212010

Sunday morning came along and after getting a lot done in the morning, it was almost time for date day. I got a call from him to make sure I’m completely ready to go when he came in. I greeted him on my knees, with my collar on, naked and kiss his boots or ankles (depending on what he is wearing).  I proceeded with our ritual and once I was done, he bent down and kissed me before telling me to stay still and not to look. I heard him rumbling around our toy closer and all of a sudden a big, cloth bag is put over my head. He put a belt around the bag and my waist to secure it and took me into the bedroom to use me.  It was hot having the bag over my head, my breathing and sight limited. We had sex like that for awhile before he removed it and decided it was time to torture my breast until we both orgasmed.

After we took some time to relax and recover, we went out in the living room to play with some rope. I found a great video on Hogtied by Lew Rubens for a basic suspension. After showing it to PG, we decided to try it out. After putting on a revised chest harness, he tied rope along my thighs and lifted one leg up and then the other one. We had to revise it a couple of times but then we found exactly where the rope felt good and making it a bit looser. Once the revisions were made, we tried again. First one leg went up and then the other. It felt great but we both knew it wouldn’t be sustainable for a long period of time. Just as the video showed, he tied a waist rope around me and everything felt great. I was able to twirl, swing and just float. It was so much fun being swung around and swinging to kiss him. I’m not sure how long I was up for but eventually he had to take me down.  After being up in the air, it felt really weird being back on the floor. He started to undo all the ropes and after taking some photos , we cuddled up with rope surrounding us. It was the first time that PG suspended me fully and it was great. Looking forward to more and just wished we had more time today.

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February 2010 MVK

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Feb 072010

It’s been a couple of months since I went to MVK. I couldn’t make the December one and there wasn’t one in January.

The evening started out with PG picking me up and us attending the resistance play workshop. The workshop was a lot of fun and people were encouraged to try various moves on each other. After learning some new moves including a couple on how to block people when they try to take me down.

The workshop ended early and we had a bit of time to catch up with some friends. After the dungeon was set up, we planned on playing as the original plan was to have an early night. We set up on the medical table and I was tightly bound to it. We ended up delaying our scene as a scene auction going on and we simply enjoyed watching it.  It was fun having a bit of play while watching and the MC did a great job of raising money and promoting play. PG ended up on bidding on a scene to have a wonderful female join us for the interrogation scene we were doing that night. Due to the popularity of many of the people being auctioned, we schedule doing the scene with her for another night.  I’m looking forward to it as I’m sure it will fun and intense.

The auction was over and we started on the scene. The story behind it was that I was rigging the gold medal Olympics game to make sure Canada would win. PG was a citizen who supported fair play and was trying to get the password out of me to unlock my plan. The scene was fun. Since I was already bound during the auction, he tried getting the information out of me by using vampire gloves all over my body. He was going harder than usual and some of the marks are a bit deep. He would put the blanket over me to keep me warm (unfortunately there was no heat in the building that night) and to keep me in suspense.  The vampires gloves did a good number on me and had me struggling and fighting against the bounds. After he was satisfied with the marks on me, he started playing with the clothes pins. He has these plastics ones which are particular evil. I could see that he was properly going to end up doing a zipper on me.

Unfortunately around that time there was a distracted that interpreted the scene. I ended up having to take a break because of it. After we talked a bit, we decided to continue and not let that end things. During the time we took a break, he untied my legs and arms to give me time to rest. We continued but the first part was to get me bound again and under his control. I still had rope wrapped around me and the top part of the bench but my legs and arms were free. It was fun, I put up a good fight so he couldn’t completely get me bound for a bit. We probably fought for a good 15 minutes before he had my legs and arms where he wanted them. We continued the scene and he managed to get 66% of the password with nipple torture and other things. Unfortunately, we had to call the scene short for a couple of reasons.

We ended up thinking we were going to leave and headed outside. We talked a bit outside the dungeon, debriefed and we decided to go back in and play. We ended up finding an empty spot on the cross and jumped on it. Before the scene started he told me to kneel down and put my collar on, which creates a completely different mind space. He clipped me onto the cross and worked on my ass until it was beautiful shades of pink and red. After I was nice and deep into subspace,  he took me down, we cuddled and then decided to go home to continue the  aftercare.

Overall, it was a good night. We had a bit of a bump but we were able to talk about it and ended up having a wonderful second scene.  We both got the aftercare and comfort that we needed. It was our first interrogation scene in public and a good learning experience for the both of us. A good part about ending the interrogation scene was that he still has to get the last of the password out of me, we will continue the mission of him trying to get the rest of the password today.

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Task: Locked in

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Jan 312010

It’s in the early evening Saturday, the hockey game is on in the background and I have my heavy collar on which is connected by a chain to the table. There isn’t much slack available as the chain are simply metal ankle cuffs. PG e-mailed and checked in with a call to give me the tasks with all the details. I’m allowed to be on my laptop and I figured it would be a nice touch to write this as I’m locked in.

It’s proving to be a bit difficult as I don’t have much slack but having my movement and freedom limiting is powerful. I needed a sip of water but had to struggle to reach it. It was a challenge and next time I’ll remember to move the water closer.  I’m helpless and and can only move as much as the chain will until it’s time for me to be unlocked. All I can do is rest here, be on my laptop and think about him and the restrictions that I’m under.

I like being restricted like this. I’m forced to stay here for the full hour and if (which I haven’t) forgot and tried to get up, I would get a quick reminder of his control over me. I’m wondering what we are going to do tomorrow. I really want to try to play tomorrow in some form, if he allows it. I miss being treated like his slut, whore or whatever else he wants me to be. To be pushed, sweaty and fall over in exhaustion when the day is done. I know we will have to take it easy but hopefully if I’m good and present myself naked, collar on and in position when he enters, we will be able to explore what we can do during this recovery process. I believe I’m healed enough for some play.

Our D/s relationship comes very naturally but the most important and beautiful thing is that it’s not holding me back and actually makes me feel more free. If something is up, I can easily bring it up. It can be something as simple as I’ve had a tough day at work and I really would like to be bratty and feisty, he supports it and encourages me or it can be something more serious and he is there for me.

I would love to keep writing but my time is up and I have to get unlocked. It’s amazing how slow I write when I’m locked in and my movements are restricted.

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Birthday and Christmas

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Dec 202009

This weekend was just what I needed. Friends, time with PG and even some relaxing.

I had a small early birthday celebration on Friday night. My birthday falls on the 29th which makes scheduling anything difficult because of Christmas and New Years. I kept it small  this year which was perfect. There was only 6 others and it was just the right size. After a delicious sushi dinner, we came back to my house for snacks, drinks, cake and play.

It was a fun evening and everyone got a chance to play too. Catching up, sharing, joy and laughs made it a perfect birthday.  Of course, I had to get my birthday spankings to end the night.

For Saturday, I cancelled my plans and took the day to relax and catch up on some needed tasks and rest.

Sunday was a magical day. It was PG and ours Christmas celebration. I’m leaving for Ontario on Christmas Eve and we wanted time to celebrate it together. After giving him his gift, he presented me with an envelope. I already knew what was in it but this would be my first time seeing it. After reading the card and the sweet words inside, I pulled out a braided leather collar. It was beautiful but even more was the meaning behind it.

Ever since our relationship has grown and expanded into D/s,  we talked about having a collar I could wear in public and to work that would symbolize our relationship. Before Christmas, we looked around and found a discreet one on-line. It’s made of leather with a back enclosure that requires a lock.

After PG put it on me, it felt right. It’s a symbol of our relationship and how much of a role it plays in our life. For the rest of the day, we spent it together and another surprised came up. A lot of our relationship has informal in terms of D/s but we are slowly making it more formal when it feels right. Over Christmas, on separate sides of the country, he is going to prepare some written rules and the corresponding discipline if they are not followed. I will contribute my thoughts and ideas on it as well. I’m looking forward to this as we work on making our relationship more formal. It feels right and has happen naturally.

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VCH piercing ceremony

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Dec 112009

Last Wednesday night was very special. For the longest time, I’ve wanted a VCH (vertical clitoral hood) piercing but for one reason or another I never got it done.

PG knew that I’ve wanted to get it done and we were discussing that one night. It started out simple, I brought it up that I would like to do it with him there with me. Over the course of our conversations and the closer we become, the thought was mentioned to make it a special ceremony between us. As soon as I heard it, I knew it was right.

We knew we wanted it to be special and as sexy as piercing stores are, it wouldn’t of been the right atmosphere for us. We wanted it to be some place special to us. We also wanted the person who was doing the person to understand the D/s element of it and at the very least be comfortable and understanding with it. We found that with the best piercer in Vancouver who understood all of that.

The more we talked about it and waited, the more it meant. It’s a commitment to each other and to our relationship. Even though, we are both poly, we have a special relationship and bond.

After some organizing and patiently waiting, Wednesday night was here. We went out for sushi and headed back to my place for some intimate bonding before getting ready.  After setting up the sling, showering and bonding the cell phone rang and we were only minutes away.

That’s when I got nervous, this meant so much to us and was a significant act. When I get nervous (and happy) I giggle a lot. PG was great and supportive. He relaxed me, tied a breast harness on me and gave me a lot of kisses and hugs. The time came and I was in the sling, legs spread and PG standing beside me while holding my hand.

After I was cleaned, PG took the time to say some very sweet words which will remain private. It was really sweet and touching. My heart melted and feelings of love came rushing into me. It also left me speechless.

I was told to remember what this means and take deep breaths. There was a wow oh fuck when the needle went in. A couple of seconds later, the jewelry went in. I laid in the sling embracing the feelings with PG right there. The sensations rushing in me. After gaining a bit of composure, we talked about different things about the piercing such as how to clean it (urine is the fine) and about how long we would have to wait for certain activities.

The adrenaline rush hit me and I was bouncing all over the place. After saying goodbye to the amazing piercer, we spent the rest of the night together and celebrating our new commitment.

It was a magic and special night between us. The emotions, love and adrenaline was running high. This is surely a night that we will both remember and a special piece of metal in me that displays it.

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Weekend tasks

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Oct 132009

After the Lee Harrington D/s Intensive weekend, PG and I started talking more about incorporating more rituals into our lives. One thing that is important to both of us, is the tasks that he gives me. We are still going to be discussing a variety of other topics that the weekend brought up but the first step is to know what we want to continue.

This weekend was Thanksgiving weekend, PG was away from the weekend and I decided to dedicate this weekend (after a fun party on Friday) to pampering myself and getting caught up. Since he knew I was planning to clean on Saturday, my tasks for Saturday was to clean with handcuffs in front of me for one hour. I have to admit, it was frustrating at times and I would end up causing temporarily pain when I would move my wrist but it was effective. The point of the task was to have a constant reminder of his control of me in my daily tasks. It was challenging and it was a constant reminder of working past obstacles and challenging myself for his pleasure.

Today’s tasks was more personal. I was ordered to write (his name) property on my thighs and something personal to be on my breast in regards to his ownership of me. I’m not sure if I’m able to reveal that so I better keep my mouth quiet for now. We just started doing this last week and I love it. The thought of a writing of ownership on me creates a warm, fuzzy feeling. It’s nice looking down and seeing it on me. I know it pleases him knowing I have this on me. It’s in a way like an invisible collar.  I can’t always have the writing on me due to life, pro-subbing and dating but on the days I can, I would like to.

We will keep exploring new ideas for rituals, I love the path we are going on. It helps us feel more connected, fills me with even more warmth and love.

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Locked up task

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Sep 132009

“You are to use the bigger cuffs to lock your ankles up. Then a pair of hand cuffs to lock your hands together – in front of you. Then use one of the silver carabiner clips to loop the two chains together (the chains can be free to slip back and forth through the carabiner). You are to wear these chains for a minimum of ninety minutes. As always, time in, time out, thoughts and photos must be provided.”

That was part of the e-mail I received. I was instructed to open the e-mail when I had 2 hours of free time on Saturday or Sunday. I went out on Saturday to volunteer for MVK and didn’t have any free time until Sunday morning. After waking up and having some tea and fruit, I went to my computer to open up the e-mail from PG.

I was a bit surprised at first. I knew in the future that he would be incorporating handcuffs into my tasks. He had me try on the handcuffs to see if I could get out of them with keys on Wednesday but I wasn’t thinking that it would be so soon. The first part of the e-mail revealed where the keys were and an extra one was included just in case.

I put on the ankle handcuffs and locked them, put on the carabiner on the wrist cuffs, put those on and secured them. Trying to find a position that I could sustained was a bit difficult. After shifting around a bit, I found a comfortable position on my back with my legs up. I was able to substain that position without having the metal cut into me.

A lot of what I was thinking about is reserved for PG however I felt completely helpless and vulnerable.  The chains had his physical control over me. I felt secured and well loved.

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Anticipating

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Sep 052009

Anticipating what is going to happen is always hard for me. I like to know what’s going to happen and as much as I love the surprises. I can’t help but manage to try and figure it out. I’m almost always wrong but I can’t seem to help it and I love it. I’m working on it and have gotten better but I think it will always be a part of me.

This evening, I was given a task of leaving 6 clothes pins on for 30 minutes directly and beside each nipple. I did as the orders entailed, took photos and wrote to him about how I was feeling and my start and end times. We have a play date planned for tomorrow and I’m almost nervous about what we are going to do. The nervous feeling is exciting, the butterfly in your stomach, giddiness and all the possible scenarios that run around in my head.

What increases these feelings is tomorrow will be extra special since I’m not at Paradise this year for the long weekend. PG has something big planned to me to make up for the bit of disappointment I have on not being able to make the trip down.

Now to relax for the rest of the evening and see what tomorrow entails, I’ll be sure to blog about it.

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