A wilderness weekend with PG

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Jun 172011

Relaxed, perfect and oh so happy. Last weekend was perfect. PG surprised me with a kayaking and camping trip to a local island in BC. I couldn’t wait and was jumping around, excited for days before.

View from our campsite

He took care of pretty much everything as he is an experienced kayaker and this would be my first time doing a kayak and camping trip. The trip was perfect and we were able to connect without any other distractions or obligations.  Barely any cell phone use, no landlords or neighbours to worry about or computers. Our to do list was simply each other.

The first evening was lovely with a fire being started after we set up camp. We did the traditional hot dogs and the most delicious mint s’mores while we relaxed before retiring in for the night. Sleeping naked together with him keeping me warm, simply rolling over and fucking me and using me as he wished made for a restful and happy sleep. There is something to be said about waking up in the outdoors with someone you love. I’m not sure how we pulled ourselves out of bed but we did. I was all smiley and full of cuddles and kisses as we made breakfast and enjoyed coffee.

We spent the Saturday hiking, stopping for outdoor blowjobs and upon our return to the campsite, PG set up a portable shower for us to use. It was a unique experience showering with the branches and bushes but it allowed us to stay clean while being dirty. We couldn’t wait to jump into the tent and have some fun.

During our walk

Unfortunately , there were teenagers camping close by so we had to be a bit more quiet then we wished but he was deliciously mean to me  and tested my obedience to him by making me put clamps on myself and then ordering me to take them off. It was a lovely afternoon and we both drifted off in a post orgasm bliss. We awoke to make dinner and after a lovely pasta meal that PG cooked, we enjoyed a cigar with some whiskey. It was a perfect way to enjoy an evening smoking a cigar, sharing the bench together and cuddling up. When his ash got long, he would place it in my hand. As soon as the ash would hit my hand, it sent a tingle within me. I loved being his ashtray and serving him anyway he wished.

We woke up on Sunday and I wished we could of just stayed longer but it was time to get ready to go so we could take a detour route home. I loved all the time we spent together and how much closer we feel after escaping away.

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4 years together

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Oct 312010

Halloween is PG and I anniversary and besides the party, we went out for a nice Italian dinner and spent an evening in. I can’t fully explain the impact PG has made on my life. He has always been there for me, supportive of other relationships and attractions and we have shared so much joy and happiness.  We fit together. Unfortunately, we have faced a lot of challenges that life has thrown at us but we survived it, we are stronger and both better people because of it.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned how we met on this blog. We had seen each other at an old rope and grope group but didn’t get to know each other until we went to a play party on the Ghost Ship. He came up wearing a mask, took my friend and started making out with her. I was getting ready to protect her if she didn’t want to or put up resistant as we didn’t know who it was but it turned out it was okay. She introduced us and things clicked and we decided to do some pick up play. We ended up getting sprinkles of silver paint all over us but didn’t notice until we got home. The next night was Sin Annual Halloween party and we ended up playing there too. Things seemed to click but we both were thinking that we would become play partners and have fun. As we continued to get to know each other and play, our connection grew  but I think we were both hesitant to say anything. I didn’t think with the boundaries that we would be able to be  anything other than play partners due to his other relationship but it was possible and it worked for both of us. Happy Anniversary PG.

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Water Bondage at Paradise

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Oct 052010

I went to Graydancers The Defining Moment: Getting What You Want Out of Kink class at Paradise, it’s a great class and if you have the chance to see it, I highly recommend it. I’m planning on taking what I learned and using it again in the future. During the class we deconstructed someone I knew fantasy. It was exciting, analyzing it and discussing it so it could be made into a reality. I wasn’t expecting to do the same with mine.

Since I can remember, I loved being in the water. There is something soothing about being surround in it, being weightless, floating around or pushing yourselves by doing laps. One of the first BDSM websites that I stumbled upon was Water Bondage (which sadly doesn’t update anymore), I don’t remember how many videos I downloaded and how often I would masturbate to it. I still keep some around for when the mood strikes.

We were asked to close our eyes in class and think about the first thing that came to own minds that made us hard or wet. I imaged being tied, dunked in water, helpless and being thrown around. The setting was the pool at Paradise (all that time swimming around naked left its mark) I wish I had the thought to remember to write down the discussion but what can I say other then I was distracted.

We started figuring out what would be needed for my fantasy to be made into a reality, I started getting turned on by just talking about it. As we took my fantasy and started breaking it down, it happened that Gray wanted to do it and the discussing turned more into a negotiation. After checking with the organizers, we found out that we would be able to do the scene that we had talked about. I was busy that evening so we were going to wait till the next day.

Waking up in the morning, it was chilly and cloudy which ruled out the outdoor pool but the indoor pool was still an option. The day was spent swimming, workshops and hanging out, a typical day at Paradise. After dinner, Gray and I met up and headed to the pool with T, who was a huge help and was really sweet during the scene and afterwards.

As I got undressed, there was a feeling of nervousness that overcame me briefly as I stood there naked. Once he touched his rope to my skin, I was started to relax.  He tied a hip harness on me and my arms were tied behind me. He noticed the pool noodles and worked it in between my legs and around me by using the existing rope. He walked me over to the edge of the pool where I was told to put my feet on the edge and lean forward while he held on to the harness. During that time, Gray messed with me by saying that he wasn’t sure if the pool noodles would work and created some exciting fear in my mind. The farther I leaned over, the more I excited I got as the anticipation grew.

When he let go, I fell into the water but quickly came back up. The scene was filled with lots of giggling, dunking, being thrown around, being pulled under, nipples being used as a leash and lots of other naughty fun. The rest of the hot details of the scenes are a sexy memory in my mind and those that were there. I would have loved for the scene to last longer but my arms were getting numb and I was pretty gone. I was more spaced then I thought I would be but the come down was gentle with group cuddling, delicious hot chocolate, treats and conversations.

It was a wonderful scene with Gray, a great evening with happy memories. I’ll smile every time I look at that pool.

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Sex 2.0 Seattle

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May 282010

I wrote this on the train but only got around to posting this now after adding links. I’ve been a busy girl but enjoy the post. It was a wonderful weekend.


I’m sitting on a slow train heading back to Vancouver. I was down in Seattle for the weekend attending Sex 2.0. Numerous sessions were held, new thoughts, discussions and ideas were formed. I’ll be writing about other aspects of it but right now by brain is done so I’m moving onto some social aspects and naming the sessions I went to.

After taking the train down early on Friday. K was sweet to pick me up from the train station and we went back to his and S new place. It was nice hanging out with them as it’s been way to long since I’ve seen them. We hung out and I learned more about Leather Reign which is happening in November (I’ll be posting more about it). After hanging out, catching up and grabbing some food, it was time to head back to the hotel to register and begin the night at Sex 2.0.

There were dual events going on but after showering I checked out  the hospitality suite which was playing CineKink shorts and had a selection of treats. I watched a couple of them including a video about these massive balloons that are blown up and people put themselves in them halfway or fully. It was interesting to watch and I might want to try it if I got the opportunity but I wouldn’t be seeking it out. After getting my fill of shorts, I decided it was time to go change and head down to the pool party. I was pleasantly surprised that the pool was clothing optional. I dislike swimming with a swim suit (thank god for Wreck Beach) as swimming naked is so freeing. After stripping down, I went into the pool and got to know some fun people, flirted, talked and swam. Plus, what’s better then swimming naked. I headed back up to shower and my roommate for the weekend, Graydancer, came in and we checked out the hospitality suite with brownies and Crash Pad playing before crashing. He was a great roomate to have, perfect with nudity, fun and a pleasure to talk with.

The morning came early with sessions, I attended such as New Sex Educators by Ducky DooLittle and Off-Road Relationships:Expanding Beyond a Picket Fence by Kay Porter which were informative and gave me lots to think about.  Lunch was a great cafe with Grace from Monopolyblog and Holden who host Hawtsome podcast, check out both of their sites. It was wonderful to meet them and to get to know them. There were lots of people who I met during the day, during sessions and on breaks including Inara de Luna, Julian Arancia, Veiled Venus, Betty Martin from Sacred Eros, Nick, Allena and many other.

After lunch, I attended,  Out: The Challenges and Rewards of Being Sex Positive to Your Family, Friends, Job and Culture by Graydancer which has relevance as I am trying to come out in more parts of my life where I can. The next session was The Need For “Peermanship” In Meat-Time: Flying Your Freak Flag At Conferences, Why It’s Important to Hit On Your Peers, and How To Handle Your Conference Crushes… by Reid Mihalko which was interesting and funny. After the session, I found Scarlet Lotus who I really wanted to hang out with since I found out I was going. As we were trying to find a place to eat, we ended up running into a bunch of people from the conference and grabbed some Thai. Delicious food and great company.

In the evening there wasn’t anything officially planned with the conference but I knew that I wanted to go to the CSPC for their pansexual play party, The Edge. Others wanted to as well which turned out great. After checking out the space and familiarize myself with the rules, Gray and I negotiated a wrestling/fighting scene we talked about earlier that day. It was a fun scene but boy, he is really strong. I couldn’t even really pin him down but it was fun being able to punch, fight and get thrown around. The after scene experience was mind blowing and I’m not sure if I’m able to use her name and details, however all of us ended up staying till closing having a memorial time.

Sunday morning came too early after a late night last night, the first session was The Whore Madonna Complex in Contemporary Society with Veronica Monet and then Making Money as a Sex Educator with Ducky DooLittle, Graydancer, and Inara de Luna which provided lots of information and things to think about. Yes, No, and Consent by Sinclair Sexsmith was also well worth attending including an exercise about saying no. Later there were closing remarks, draws for raffle item, and a recap of the day.

My body was pleasantly sore from the previous night, including a sore pelvis bone and bruises that were starting to form. I went back up to the room and Gray mentioned that Maymaym was organizing people to go see Iron Man 2. It was a perfect way to take a break and simply relax and enjoy a movie. You meet so many people, new ideas, experiences, things to try that at the end of it, it’s nice to take time to do something where your mind and body can relax. I’ve added it to my list of things to do after a Con and now will suggest it to others as it really helps. Thanks Gray for the suggestion, it really helped me and helped the post con crash.

After the movie, a much needed hot bath was had and dinner. After taking some downtime I went to the Sex 2.0 afterparty at the CSPC. I got there late but it was a nice way to end the conference, hang out and talk about the weekend..

Monday I said goodbye to my roommate, went back to bed and ran into Essin’ Em at breakfast before meeting up with K and S, going out for lunch and hanging out with them before catching the train.

It was a great time at Sex 2.0 and this is only a brief post about the weekend. I know I’m forgetting some other great people that I ran into but I could write a short novel on the weekend. The weekend inspired me to start trying new things, pursuing opportunities but the best part of the weekend was the personal connections with people I knew or just met and the new ideas to pursue. Potential play dates when I come to Seattle next, thoughts to explore and planning a special event for Vancouver is only the beginning.

Here are some other posts that I could find about Sex 2.0 (I’m sure I’m missing some):

Sex 2.0 Update by Scarlet Lotus

Kink on Tap 42: Sex 2.0 by Maymay and Emma

Ropecast 5-27-10: Cream and Sex 2.0 by Graydancer

Sex 2.0: Strengthening my Web by Grace

Castle Megastore videos from some of the sessions at Sex 2.0

Let me know if I missed any.

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Olympics and seeing Canada win Gold at home.

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Feb 142010

Olympic Flame

The Olympics are upon us in Vancouver, BC. The city is crazy but the love for Canada and the support for the athletes is strong.

I love  hockey and Canada. Even though the money should of been spent on much needed social programs/health care, the decision has been made and it’s here. I’m going to make the most of it.

I’ve already started checking out parts of the Olympics. Before the games, I checked out the Switzerland house and had some fondue with my good friend S. Afterwards, we rode the streetcar (leather interior) which I was lusting after. The day of the Olympic opening ceremonies, I ended up staying in and watching it from the comfort of my home but had the pleasure of being able to see the fireworks from my balcony.

Yesterday, the 13th, I treated PG to the Team Canada vs Slovakia. It was a total blowout with Team Canada winning 18-0. It was a wonderful being surrounded by fellow Canadians and seeing them on home ice. The energy was amazing and I was high off of the energy for it all. It was an once in a lifetime experience.

Team Canada celebrating their win

The next two weeks will be filled of celebration, joys and fun. Enjoy  it Vancouver and make the most of it. I’m planning on making the most of it and hope others do as well. We won our first Gold medal today and I can’t wait for the Gold medal games in hockey.

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Birthday and Christmas

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Dec 202009

This weekend was just what I needed. Friends, time with PG and even some relaxing.

I had a small early birthday celebration on Friday night. My birthday falls on the 29th which makes scheduling anything difficult because of Christmas and New Years. I kept it small  this year which was perfect. There was only 6 others and it was just the right size. After a delicious sushi dinner, we came back to my house for snacks, drinks, cake and play.

It was a fun evening and everyone got a chance to play too. Catching up, sharing, joy and laughs made it a perfect birthday.  Of course, I had to get my birthday spankings to end the night.

For Saturday, I cancelled my plans and took the day to relax and catch up on some needed tasks and rest.

Sunday was a magical day. It was PG and ours Christmas celebration. I’m leaving for Ontario on Christmas Eve and we wanted time to celebrate it together. After giving him his gift, he presented me with an envelope. I already knew what was in it but this would be my first time seeing it. After reading the card and the sweet words inside, I pulled out a braided leather collar. It was beautiful but even more was the meaning behind it.

Ever since our relationship has grown and expanded into D/s,  we talked about having a collar I could wear in public and to work that would symbolize our relationship. Before Christmas, we looked around and found a discreet one on-line. It’s made of leather with a back enclosure that requires a lock.

After PG put it on me, it felt right. It’s a symbol of our relationship and how much of a role it plays in our life. For the rest of the day, we spent it together and another surprised came up. A lot of our relationship has informal in terms of D/s but we are slowly making it more formal when it feels right. Over Christmas, on separate sides of the country, he is going to prepare some written rules and the corresponding discipline if they are not followed. I will contribute my thoughts and ideas on it as well. I’m looking forward to this as we work on making our relationship more formal. It feels right and has happen naturally.

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VCH piercing ceremony

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Dec 112009

Last Wednesday night was very special. For the longest time, I’ve wanted a VCH (vertical clitoral hood) piercing but for one reason or another I never got it done.

PG knew that I’ve wanted to get it done and we were discussing that one night. It started out simple, I brought it up that I would like to do it with him there with me. Over the course of our conversations and the closer we become, the thought was mentioned to make it a special ceremony between us. As soon as I heard it, I knew it was right.

We knew we wanted it to be special and as sexy as piercing stores are, it wouldn’t of been the right atmosphere for us. We wanted it to be some place special to us. We also wanted the person who was doing the person to understand the D/s element of it and at the very least be comfortable and understanding with it. We found that with the best piercer in Vancouver who understood all of that.

The more we talked about it and waited, the more it meant. It’s a commitment to each other and to our relationship. Even though, we are both poly, we have a special relationship and bond.

After some organizing and patiently waiting, Wednesday night was here. We went out for sushi and headed back to my place for some intimate bonding before getting ready.  After setting up the sling, showering and bonding the cell phone rang and we were only minutes away.

That’s when I got nervous, this meant so much to us and was a significant act. When I get nervous (and happy) I giggle a lot. PG was great and supportive. He relaxed me, tied a breast harness on me and gave me a lot of kisses and hugs. The time came and I was in the sling, legs spread and PG standing beside me while holding my hand.

After I was cleaned, PG took the time to say some very sweet words which will remain private. It was really sweet and touching. My heart melted and feelings of love came rushing into me. It also left me speechless.

I was told to remember what this means and take deep breaths. There was a wow oh fuck when the needle went in. A couple of seconds later, the jewelry went in. I laid in the sling embracing the feelings with PG right there. The sensations rushing in me. After gaining a bit of composure, we talked about different things about the piercing such as how to clean it (urine is the fine) and about how long we would have to wait for certain activities.

The adrenaline rush hit me and I was bouncing all over the place. After saying goodbye to the amazing piercer, we spent the rest of the night together and celebrating our new commitment.

It was a magic and special night between us. The emotions, love and adrenaline was running high. This is surely a night that we will both remember and a special piece of metal in me that displays it.

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Adventurous Anniversary Scene

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Nov 292009

PG and I  played for the first time over 3 years ago. Our relationship has grown and expanded beyond what either of us thought it would be. For our anniversary, PG took me out for a romantic greek dinner. After that we got ready for our scene that we have wanted to do for awhile.

Our idea was to do a street walker scene. I was dressed in boots with a jacket over a dress. We wanted to still be in role but not bring any attention to ourselves. On the way home, we pulled into a side street where he dropped me off. I was probably outside for about 30 seconds before a drugged out female came up to me and got in my face. I couldn’t make out what she was saying but I was getting scared. I didn’t realize PG didn’t drive around the block but just turned around so I couldn’t see him but he could see me.

He quickly drove up and was ready to rescue me but I  jumped into the car. We tried to continue the role play and did an okay job at it until we both decided to stop and simply enjoy each other without the roles. It just goes to show you even when everything between two people is planned, communicate and negotiated out side forces can throw it off track.

It worked out perfectly and we had a wonderful anniversary night including an adventure. It’s been three years of growth, support, love, happiness and many kinky memories. Happy Anniversary Love.

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Chapter Closing

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Nov 112009

I’ve been away for a couple of weeks. This is something that I’ve wanted to write about for just over 3 years now (I had another blog before).

**Disclosure – This isn’t a sex based or kink entry. I’ll be back to regular posting very soon***

3 years ago, I was in a serious car accident, I was a passager in my friends SUV. A small car ran a red light, slammed into my side and caused us to spin. I don’t remember much from the accident, I just remember the lights before it happened.

I won’t go into the details but the recovery except that it was hell. I was self-employed student and since I didn’t have employer benefits and the public insurance company here treats you like crap, I was nearly homeless and struggled. I couldn’t work for over 4 months, had to get a crappy job and suffer in pain to avoid being out on the street.  After a few months of trying to handle this on my own, I got a lawyer who helped me get necessary treatment and deal with the stress. Today, I’m a lot better but I’m not 100%. There is a lot of emotion around it. Anger, sadness, regret but it takes time to deal with those. My close friends have helped me through a lot of it and without them, I don’t know if I would have been able to survive. They were there for me whether I needed the emotional support or simply an escape from all of this. Kink played a big role in this as well as it was the one activity that I could do (modified) that gave me the peace, endorphins and happiness that I needed.

I wasn’t allowed to share this before due to the legal aspect, which is finally over. Today, it’s finally done.

I’m disappointed at how the legal system works here. I had a great lawyer but unfortunately the system isn’t designed to compensate people for what they lost and had to deal with. I have enough to continue with my medical treatments and to pay off the debts that happened since then. A marginal amount to treat a couple of the people close to me but that’s about it. A good part of the past 3 years of my life went into recovering and the fight. Now, I’m ready to move on and re-start building the life that I want. It’s a different picture then it was before but now just to figure out a way to get there.

Thank you for your patience with my absense from this blog, e-mails and social media. As most could image, I needed the past bit to deal with all of this and complete the legal aspects. I’m looking forward to getting back to writing about my life, reviews and more. Finally, I don’t have to worry about censoring it for anyone.

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Special Moment

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Jan 072009

He tied the rope tight, bounding my breast and squeezing them in only the way that a breast harness does. I thought that the rope was going to end on my breast but I was wrong and he had other plans. He took the black hemp rope and started moving it lower and lower along my body until I could feel it digging into my cunt. He pulled it and the rope disappeared with inside me.

That is how our evening started, on the ground of my living room with my vinyl sheet, a box full of needles and so much more.

I’m actually letting him take care of me as I’m recovering and I’m not scared. Being kinky is natural for me but allowing someone to be there for me like this, would usually have me pulling away but this feels right. We had a perfect evening and despite being in pain and worried, he was able to make that all go away. It’s an amazing feeling when the world around you slips away and you can really connect with one another.

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